Nightmares night...

I had a nightmare a few days ago, it was horrible because it was related to my family and my dogpets. I love them and I really hate what the dream minded.

The dream begun with a party at my house with all my family, which is unusual because we only get all together on chrismas, but anyway, I don't know why I had the feeling that it was because of something related to me.

Everything was fine, I was passing trough the house playing with my cousins and then I went to the TV room to watch RUGRATS with my brother. He was sit on the couch and he looked extremely tired and full of dirt, I assumed it was because he had been working and cleaning the garden for the party whit the family.

That's when the nightmare started.

My dad came in drunk and yelled to my brother that he was a lazy fat ass and a stupid and some other horrible things. Then he said 'I'tired of you being fucking lazy all fucking day! but now that's over, I'll put an end to that' I don't know from where, but my dad took three white little puppy dogs, they were shaking on his arms and they seem to want to cry. I was afraid because he took a knife and my mom saw him.

'That's not the way to fix things!' she yelled about to cry, but it was too late, my dad cut one of the puppies ' throat and half of its face then he trowed it to me. I panicked! I couldn't catch the pour dog and it fell to the ground, crying and running in circles, even though it wasn't bleeding. I started crying and realize that it had to have a meaning. The dogs were representing me and my brothers. The hurt one couldn't been mine because I didn't feel anything, so it must have been someone's else. I couldn't turn to my sides to see if my mom or my brother were okay, everything vanished and turned white... then I woke up crying like a baby.

I took ten minutes to stand up from bed. It was a horrible nightmare. I couldn't sleep after that.

My doctor says that I'm affraid of my dad and that the dog means that I don't know how to talk with my dad about his alcohol problems, but I know that it means that I know my dad is very dangerous when drunk, and that I must protect my brother and stay away from him, because it have been more than 20 years trying to make my dad understand, but it doesn't work...

So, now I'm the evil one?

What the hell!?!! I hate friendship! one of my friends, maybe the only one that actually cares for meand that'll do anything for me is depress now and I can't help him... I feel like shit DX why can't I make him happy? :S I just make things worse DX and I hate it DX... not conform with that, another friend (who I've not talk a lot recently) asked me to go to the moves tomorrow with my group of ''friends'' and him. I do want to go with them, but I'm not interested on the movies they want to watch. I've done it thousand times! we go to the movies and I pay for a movie that I don't want to watch just to be with them :S and sometimes I don't even go with them because I don't have money to pay for the tickets :S!!!

I worked hard to get the money for this musical that I want to watch and I working hard because I don't have someone or something in which to go there (the musical is on the next city, a hour away) and I'm worried because it seems like i wont go after all, but it feels like shit that someone who knows you tries to make you the villain to get what they want >_>

Fuck! it feels horrible!!! THEY DON"T EVEN KNOW ME AND STILL DARE TO SAY THAT THEY LOVE ME AND MISS ME AND THAT THEY WANT ME TO BE WITH THEM?!! HELL'S SHIT!! DX

I can't hold my tears anymore, I love theater. Here in the tiny town where I live is almost death that kind of culture.

The conversation with my friend was son persistant that he even tried to blackmail me with some money he borrowed me one day that he was so hurry to wait for me to get my purse.

he ended the conversation blaming me for not to go, like saying 'Okay but don't say that we're not friends of you because of US, 'cause we ask you to go out with us and you don't want to' FUCK, IF ONLY HE KNEW!!!

I just stayed speechless... it means ' if you don't come with us to do something you don't want to, then you're not our friend, but if we don't go with you to do something you like, then you're the wrong one because it means you wont go out with us.'

I hate it.

I miss the old days when we were REAL FRIENDS! :C

More Randomness! xD

Ahhahaa, I don't know who was the genius that made this xD but its extremely LOL!

A lo que se resume la historia mexicana...

Super Junior!!

Some nice Koreans that a friend ask me to watch, they're awesome, specially when they dance :D! hope you like them and of course, their music too :D!

Sorry Sorry~

BONAMANA!

NO OTHER

This are the three songs that I like the most, so, hope you like them and enjoy the video as well.

Besides, as an extra plus, they're all hot and sexy! ahahha $: :D!!

Sweet Pool 38!!

haha, that's right, I'm already at part 38 muahaha! xD the story is each video more and more confusing, but I think with time everything's gonna get clear (or at least that's what I hope to).





Also I passed the first alternative finale from the game, Oh my ._. Youiji is literally rape to death._. I won't spoil you anymore. Hope you like the videogame, and if you play it or have a coment about it, don't doubt and post it, I'll accept anything that comes from you (even if they're rotten tomatoes) :D!




WARNING! this videos contain YAOI, which mean boyxboy relationships. On the finale parts there are explicit sex and some strong images that sensitive people may not stand, so please, only watch if you're 100% sure you can stand it, otherwise, don't complain about it, remember, no one forced you to watch and you were already warned.

Breaking Benjamin - Rain

I don't know why I love this video so much, I just... Love it <3!








Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,

I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Is it you I want,
Or just the notion of
A heart to wrap around
so I can find my way around

Safe to say from here,
You're getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.


To lie here under you,
is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Talking about 3D stuff :D

Something about zombies

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Paper stars!! :D

I just found out how to make pretty paper stars

It is so easy xD Here's a page with all the directions :)

http://www.wikihow.com/Make-3D-Paper-Stars

It's extremly easy, I'm gonna post a picture of my own stars when I get time :)

Bokura no Ai no Kanade

Queezess~~

I just made a quiz at Quizilla

this are the results:

You're actually just fine.

You're great at feeling okay with yourself. It's alright to worry a little about what others think of you but worrying too much is damaging to everything, including your social life, because you won't find your real friends. Keep doing whatever you're doing because you're looking good and you're feeling good.

I don't know if this is good or bad, but I'll take it as an advice :)

a funny sound~

Sometimes we are fine just as we are :)

Sweet Pool~

I've been playing this game named 'Sweet Pool' I can't say I'm in love with the main character, but I think he's really cute $:

I have some screenshots from the game, but I f ound it on Youtube with spanish subtitles.

This are Youji and Tetsuo <3! haha xD

This is Tetsuo eating some kind of food that looks like a hotdog&Spaguetti's marriage's abortion D: (but still looks yummi :D)

And this are Zenya and Kitani (or something like that, I don't really remember his name ._.)

-->Kitani(?)&Zenya<--

The name of the iguana is Cristie, haha, she's really cute too :D

This is the first part, if you want to check the rest you can go to the Youtube page :)

it's very entertainer.

Since I'm bad writing reviews, here's the one I read that made me force my friends to download me the game :D xD

Click Me!

I think that's all... I'll be doing screenshots of the game, hope you like them :P

R.I.P...

I think the picture speaks from itself :'( (U)!!!!

Another reason why I do hate drunk people. :@ :'(

:S

I just hate drunkers, don't you? :D!

ARG!!!!

I just got a bunch of things to tell you , but I don't have time!! x333 arggh! maybe today at night or tomorrow I'll be uploading some of my crap -.- I know noone reads me, but at least I want to keep track of the things I do :P

Dreams off~

Math problems x_X

uffff..... Still working on maths, I don't think I'll be posting something until Wednesday X_X sorry :\ I'll try to post something at school anyways ;D :3

Studying Maths!

Right now I'm at a friend's and we're studying math from my horrible test tomorrow x_X

I'll write about him at night, so I'm leaving now :D

good bye~